Sadness bleeds thru my veins
Twisting and turning
Rounding every curve
Carried thru my entire body
Weak and tired
My body ready to give up
My mind fighting
Not ready to give in.
A battle wages
Mind and heart
Body and soul
Life and death
So many things left to fight for
So many people left to love
So many people depending on me
But the darkness is thick
The light getting weak.
Confusion
Over powers all.
There are no words for the amount of pain I feel
It grows and festers
You stole my light
You stole my dreams
You stole my life
Can you hear my screams?
You ignore them
You can’t hear them
You don’t care
Life without you is bare
Empty
Lifeless
My days are short
My nights grow long
My heart is heavy
My mind is gone
Day by day my light dims
My heart slips
Icing over
But I shall live
I will survive
My heart is solely yours.
Yet, I find tiny webs of doubt
Your words weaving a deadly thread of deception
My love reserved solely for you.
That glimmer in your eye
Is hard to deny
It shines brighter with every lie
My mind always on you.
It’s written on your face
Bright and bold as the morning light
I give you my soul
Your long pauses of silence
Your mind at work
Creating an intricate web of lies
I give you my life
You give me endless explanations
Your webs have holes
Your stories inconsistent
I give you my all
Every word reveals
Every silky strand breaks apart
Slowly showing
What you so desperately try to hide.
But you forget who your dealing with
I creep behind you
I stalk my prey
My bright red belly hides no lies
Your trapped in my Web
And there you shall lye
Till you learn to be faithful
You live life carelessly.
It’s not just you and me.
You live life selfishly.
Consiquences mean nothing.
You won’t always be so lucky.
Loneliness is not a new thing to me.
I live life carefully.
It’s not just you and me.
I give my life selflessly.
You may think life is boring.
You find others fullfilling.
But they are temporarily entertaining
A life not worth sustaining
It’s not just you and me
There’s life waiting silently
For you to wake up and see
All our love waiting patently
My hope is shattered.
I’m empty inside.
You no longer love me
But your still by my side
There’s an experation
On our life together
I now understand
We were never ment to be
That doesn’t mean
That I won’t feel the pain
You call to me,
Your eyes
Your smile
Your skin
Your body
Your soul
No longer mine
My insecurities are eating me.
My doubts preceeding me.
My negativity filling me.
You have a vision.
You have a dream.
Of the way she should be.
Beauty
Perfection
You’re expectations are high.
My self esteem is low.
You’re words sooth.
But you’re eyes hold truth.
You say, “I don’t care.”
You say, “you look beautiful. I love you.”
But you’re eyes wander.
You’re love betrays.
You’re mind millions of miles away.
My heart is yours.
And yours is mine, for one day.
